One of WordPress’ analytics tools, labeled “Search Terms”, shows us the search words by which others are finding our posts (though it doesn’t specify which post).
Most of the time, for (I think) privacy reasons, Google hides the actual search words and just says “Unknown Search Terms”, but occasionally the actual words show. I’ve seen “losing friends” (which presumably led someone to this post), “being godly and sexy” (I’m guessing this), a surprising number containing the phrase “last minute” (which probably all led to this), and some hilarious non sequiturs that aren’t at all appropriate to share.
On Monday, this one popped up: “single and feel like god doesn’t care”
My heart broke.
Illl never know who, out of 7.5 billion people, was led to my site by that search. I can only hit my knees and pray that God helps them.
Because I know what that feeling is like.
Sometimes we must sweep aside the gilded smile on our faces and face what our hearts are really believing. And one of the deep trusts often festering in our hearts is this: when we undergo hard things, it can feel like God doesn’t care. Or at least doesn’t care enough to fix it.
That applies to singleness. No matter how many married people tell you that marriage won’t fix everything (and it won’t) or sweep aside your feelings with a big hearty “You shouldn’t be lonely, you have JESUS!!!”*, loneliness is real. There are those who’d give anything to have someone to share a dinner with, someone to help with the calendar or budget, someone to just touch them on the shoulder, or even just to get to use the word “we” instead of “I”. Only the lonely understand. And that only makes them lonelier.
It’s another level of suck entirely to bear the clenching idea that God doesn’t care. That he’s too concerned with The Plan** to notice how our hearts react to it.
To feel cut off and dismissed by the greatest hope we have? Awful.
I have wonderful news.
It’s a lie.
It’s a lie.
God does care. Immensely.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
Record my misery;
list my tears on your scroll—
are they not in your record? (Psalm 56:8)
God sets the lonely in families,
he leads out the prisoners with singing;
but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land. (Psalm 68:6)
That’s only a sample of the verses describing God’s tenderness and thoughtfulness to those struggling with any hope deferred.
I love Psalm 56:8 especially. It evokes God’s fierce attentiveness, his thorough capture of our each and every tear.
Whatever your theology about his sovereignty and purposes, God allows for our disappointment. Even though he truly is enough for us, God grants in Psalm 68:6 that loneliness is real. Somehow, deeply, mysteriously, in a way that real theologians could better untangle, both truths coexist in this world.
Now…that doesn’t mean he’ll bring you someone tomorrow. That’s the confounding part, and the part that requires maturity on our part. There is no exegetically defensible promise in Scripture that binds him to bring us a mate. That’s the broken road we must walk.
Some of us honestly aren’t interested in God’s care if it comes in any form except a spouse. That was me for a long time. The posture was narrow, and it pinched off my connection with God for a large chunk of my adult life. I let it get to me. Instead of joy, resentment, distance, and confusion marked my walk. (And the irony is, such reaction to pain does not make you a good marriage candidate.)
Over the years, Jesus got to me in a wonderful way. Calm and lightness of heart replaced the heaviness. I rediscovered hope and faith. “He made my feet like the feet of a deer; he caused me to stand on the heights” (Psalm 18:33). And I long to see other singles reach those heights.
I know. I can hear you sigh. It sounds like a consolation prize.
It’s not. I beg you to trust me on that.
And one of the gateways, the first steps towards that lightness, is embracing the truth that God cares.
That detached, vaguely irritated God that you imagine? That’s not the God of the Bible. Run, don’t walk, from any un-Biblical theology that says your tears are misplaced before God. They are recorded on his scroll.
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* I’m happy to say I’ve never once gotten this cliche from anyone at my church.
** I am not diminishing God’s wisdom or providence. I’m simply saying that they are not always the right message to relieve someone’s hurt, and I believe Scripture bears that out.