I saw this on my Facebook feed yesterday (thanks, Christy!) and had to share-and-quickblurb.
“What if God said to you: ‘You can be part of my own awesome, immeasurable aims that are bigger than your ability to understand, and you will experience confusion and waiting…OR I can limit my activity in your life to only that which makes sense to you, and your life will feel much simpler. You pick.'” -Gary Morland
On one hand, it scares me, because “awesome, immeasurable aims” completely takes away the nice and predictable. It’s more than just confusion and waiting. It’s loss means the shift of things being divinely rearranged and all the breathless instability and in-between transient living that goes along with that.
On the other hand…this might explain some things.
Confusion and waiting are old friends of mine. One of my frequent questions to God lately has been, “Do you have no more use for me?” Some would leap to call that a self-centered question instead of a God-centered question, but it’s a real concern. I want to see the fullness of God’s glory in my life, yet a number of attempts to do things for him lately have been blocked. Whether by God or by Satan, I do not know. (Scripture indicates that both do some blocking, and that their work can sometimes be difficult to distinguish.)
So it’s exciting to think that their continuing presence in my life might be signs that God still has great plans for my life after all. Even if I did start behind the curve.
At this point in my journey, the fear of life at high spiritual altitudes is starting to be outweighed by the fear of lifelong safety and tedium and never seeing God use me in amazing ways.
So I think I’ll wait.
Confused about my life I may be, but I am not confused about God’s character. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever.