The Choice

forkI saw this on my Facebook feed yesterday (thanks, Christy!) and had to share-and-quickblurb.

“What if God said to you: ‘You can be part of my own awesome, immeasurable aims that are bigger than your ability to understand, and you will experience confusion and waiting…OR I can limit my activity in your life to only that which makes sense to you, and your life will feel much simpler. You pick.'” -Gary Morland

Oh, man.

Oh, man.

On one hand, it scares me, because “awesome, immeasurable aims” completely takes away the nice and predictable. It’s more than just confusion and waiting. It’s loss means the shift of things being divinely rearranged and all the breathless instability and in-between transient living that goes along with that.

On the other hand…this might explain some things.

Confusion and waiting are old friends of mine. One of my frequent questions to God lately has been, “Do you have no more use for me?” Some would leap to call that a self-centered question instead of a God-centered question, but it’s a real concern. I want to see the fullness of God’s glory in my life, yet a number of attempts to do things for him lately have been blocked. Whether by God or by Satan, I do not know. (Scripture indicates that both do some blocking, and that their work can sometimes be difficult to distinguish.)

So it’s exciting to think that their continuing presence in my life might be signs that God still has great plans for my life after all. Even if I did start behind the curve.

At this point in my journey, the fear of life at high spiritual altitudes is starting to be outweighed by the fear of lifelong safety and tedium and never seeing God use me in amazing ways.

So I think I’ll wait.

Confused about my life I may be, but I am not confused about God’s character. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever.


17 thoughts on “The Choice

  1. One thing for sure, God uses you through your writing, many times, when I get discouraged, I read the blogs you write and I sense His comfort through your words (I hope that makes sense). Or times I’m at the brink of feeling down, but when I come across a good word from you and other bloggers, the dark clouds lift away.

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  2. This really nailed it, I stood in a Dunkin Donuts line completely in awe. I realized, there is a certain comfort in not being able to figure it out. Life can become so mundane that it seems none of the ordinary things “matter” but even the simplest act, witnessed without our knowledge, done for the glory of God, can have an impact on someone greater than we will ever know in this life. That unimaginable web of mystery is exciting and so worth it 💗 thank you for your little thought provoking gems.

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  3. While reading C.S. Lewis’ book, ‘The Problem of Pain’ today, I remembered this post…wanted to share some stuff he said that was encouraging…
    “We are, not metaphorically but in very truth, a Divine work of art, something that God is making, and therefore something with which He will not be satisfied until it has a certain character. Here again we come up against what I have called the ‘intolerable compliment’. Over a sketch made idly to amuse a child, an artist may not take much trouble: he may be content to let it go even though it is not exactly as he meant it to be. But over the great picture of his life – the work which he loves a woman or a mother a child – he will take endless trouble -and would, doubtless, thereby give endless trouble to the picture if it were sentient. One can imagine a sentient picture, after being rubbed and scraped and recommended for the tenth time, wishing that it were only a thumbnail sketch whose making was over in a minute. In the same way, it is natural for us to wish that God had designed for us a less glorious and less arduous destiny; but then we are wishing not for more love but for less.”

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