Reflections On a Year of Blogging

One year ago today, I launched brandonjadams.com.

Unexpectedly, it launched me. My sanctification.

At first, the blog was a disaster. I just chuckle at some of my old posts (a lot of them have been polished since then). Scattered, dense, overthought, narrative jukes that could send even the tightest reader spinning off a cliff. I discovered very quickly that classic blogging tip: come back to a finished article two days later, read it over again with frsh eyes, and you’ll be in a position to make it twice as good.

Of course, the moment I realized that, the commitment angle raised its head. Suddenly it was hard to keep up, hard to maintain the enthusiasm. I’d get a great idea in my head while I drove around delivering pizzas, and of course the moment I found a keyboard it would sink back into the cerebellum, reluctant to be pulled back out. I’d coax it and plead with it and retrieve it piece by piece like a frozen piece of string cheese, but it would never be as epic as first conceived. How discouraging. Most of the winter and spring saw me underperform in the number of posts I wrote.

Then there was the small matter of being relevant, being relatable, being something that  a reader could walk away with and apply in their daily lives. And coming up with a decent title – enough to reveal the subject, not enough to give away the entire blog – which is half the battle of any post. And self-promotion, firm yet tasteful. And good site design. And guest posts. And SEO. And…

…I’m boring you.

Okay. Here’s the most interesting part.

Satan.

The man loves to lie.

Who do you think you are, Brandon? You aren’t smart enough, experienced enough, authoritative enough, to do this. You haven’t been to Bible school. This is incredibly pretentious of you. Leave the teaching to your pastors. After all, God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble. Just quit.

All the time. Week after week.

But the week after that, it might be:

You’re timid. Cowardly. Withholding your best ideas. Your audience has gotten bored with you and they’re just too polite to tell you. But you can’t get too bold because then other people might leave. Just quit.

And sometimes it’s:

You just suck wastewater as a writer. Not enough metaphors, not enough indirection, not enough grace. You’re as blunt and boring as a hammer. You’ll never be as good as (insert epic Christian author here). And do you even have your exegesis squared away? This is all a lot of pressure. Just quit.

See a pattern?

Funny how Satan contradicts himself. He never sticks to one line. As an old saint at my church put it, “Satan’s weakness is overplaying his hand.” He gives himself away by throwing around illogical thoughts and hoping that we don’t notice, or that we won’t be able to distinguish his voice from our own.

Because that voice could be me. Satan has bludgeoned, harassed, accused, and pestered me enough over the years to where part of me has started sounding like him. This often happens in our younger years. It’s a sinister scheme, designed to deflect us from what God wants us to do.

What’s so sinister is that he isn’t entirely wrong. I could be pretentious. I could be timid. People might leave. And I’ll certainly never be the church’s best writer. This is all true. After all, the most effective lies are the ones with a little truth mixed in.

I do not say all this to fish for praise. Far be such an ungodly motive from me. I renounce it in Jesus’ name and give it no claim to my life. All glory to him.

I’m just saying this out of joy that God, during my blogging journey, is revealing the solution: him. Spend more time with him. Hear from him. Know his language by reading his Scriptures. And when Satan handily provides us with his agenda, turn straight into the wind. Walk against it. Bring the lies of Satan before God’s feet, and ask him what to do with them.

I want to know what he thinks of me. Only there will life be found.

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:13)

16 thoughts on “Reflections On a Year of Blogging

  1. Brandon, I am glad you did not quit. It is in the struggle, through the perseverance, and in the midst of “blah” we fund who we are in Christ. We grow, we stumble, we get back up stronger.

    You have captured my attention.

    I pray your next year of writing finds you faithful to the one who has called you. I pray you come to know that trust without borders! Blessing to you and congrats!

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  2. Congratulations Brandon on your first year of blogging. I do relate to what you described. I’m 9 months in, and am enjoying too. The second guessing I suppose is normal, Satan wants to distract us. He wants to steal, kill and destroy. I’m glad you pushed through. Again, congrats.

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  3. Happy one year of blogging! I know it can be hard to stick with it, but you are doing great, I really enjoy your writing. You are the only blog I follow that talks about Christianity, so you are making an impact on me. I can’t speak for God (obviously) but I’m sure he is happy you are spreading encouragement.

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  4. Congratulations on making this far in your blogging journey! When you’re true and sincere with your heart’s desire, God will guide you on the right words to write.

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  5. Very nice. And very relatable. It’s so funny you wrote this. I started my blog in 2013 and wrote for a year. I was lucky if I’d get any kind of response. For an entire year I would have hit and miss responses to what I wrote. I finally stopped. I finished school and had a baby. I had no plans to return until my husband and I prayed about it. I’ve only been back at it a few months. Only this time I have a different approach. The outcome now is much different. Congratulations on one year of blogging. Keep up the good work!

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